christina condiment

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 05:46:18 GMT

ricco is stooooopid

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 01:14:53 GMT

i'm an idiot.
i get pissed too easily
and no i'm not referring to dana lol.
im just referring to my previous entries.

i love my boyfriendddd
hes my best frienddddd<333

Fri, 21 Jul 2006 00:06:18 GMT

i only write in this when i'm mad about something lol
i noticed that.
i never have anything nice to say.
whateverrrr

ummmm today i went to the doctors since ive had this weird cough for like 2 weeks,
he did basically nothing
then i went to new milford and i'm still there now at cathy's house
dana is comingggg soon in like 20 mins

yeah and i get to go to cynthia's new house and sleep over on saturday :)
beaaccccchhh!

i barely talked to my boyfriend all day
i guess hes too busy with his band or something like usual
=/
i never say anything about it but it really annoys me sometimes
i mean i dont even care who reads this
cause its been bothering me
like can't he just give it a break for even a day
i feel like i never see him unless its WITH people from his band,
or at one of his practices.
he took off of work this weekend
for a second i thought that maybe he took off for me
but then i remembered what this week was.

ugh
whatever

Mon, 17 Jul 2006 05:16:14 GMT

i feel like everyone but me is growing up
i just want to be done with being a kid/teenager, whatever i am
i just want to be older and have a job and a life of my own
i'm sick of being controlled by people

i want my own house with a dog and a husband
and a real job
i just want to grow up already
im sick of waiting

Wed, 12 Jul 2006 19:01:32 GMT

i've been so fucking mad lately, idk
people suck dick.
idk why i'm so mad though, like the stupidest shit will set me off
it could be like even when someone just says a certain word.
i hate getting mad for no reason.

and when people ask me "oh whats wrong" or "why are you in a bad mood" i just say nothing because i don't want to start any problems or confrontations because it just makes shit worse.

idk it also really annoys me that i'm almost never alone with my boyfriend
everytime we hang out we always have to have other people with us
like its not fun if it were just us or something idk.
i never used to like hanging out in my house, but now i do cause its the one place where no one else is.

idk whatever

Tue, 27 Jun 2006 22:23:22 GMT

people have changed.
sometimes i feel like people that ive been/am closest with don't even like me anymore.

i kind of miss last summer when all i did was hang out with dana
like it wasn't even a question as to what i was gonna do the next day.

i have nothing else to say

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 03:51:42 GMT

everything is finally coming to some sort of an end
finals are this week though eh, geometry is tomorrow.
my dance recital is not this saturday, but the next one.
i can't wait until everything is overrrrrr.

i think i'm gonna get a job though
because my mom doesn't pay for anything
she cancelled my tanning membership lol
and im not even going to ask her to get me a gym membership
not to mention clothes and shit i want to buy that she doesn't give me money for.

yeah i'm going to paramus park with katie tomorrow after the geometry final which is over at like 930 to look.

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 06:34:06 GMT

wow
my mom flipped out on me because i came home at like 1
she said if you ever do that again im gonna have a talk with your boyfriend
which i dont even understand because he didn't do anything wrong.
she just wants to ruin everything i have.
and shes pissed because this is the longest ive gone
without her fucking something up.

i hate how she cant drop anything
she told me not to do it again and i said sorry and i said okay
but she still has to keep screaming at me.

im so pissed off.
ive noticed that every single "mood"
on this journal is horrible.

Wed, 31 May 2006 03:50:54 GMT

this has more or less been the worst 2 weeks of this year.
idk whats wrong with me
i'm so depressed lately, its disgusting.
i havent eaten a meal since like...a long time ago.

i hope that this weekend is good
well i know its not gonna be.
but atleast i hope i can "rekindle"
friendships that ive had with people that just kind of got lost in
me having a boyfriend and other people doing their own thing.

Sat, 27 May 2006 16:17:45 GMT

yeah, so im really bored
and my pants are in the dryer.
i think i'm going to waldwick tonight?

who knows,
cause riccoooo wont wake up
and tell me what we're doing lol.

um yeah, fuck i left my waffles downstairs in the toaster.

so yesterday

Thu, 25 May 2006 17:43:20 GMT

the more i think about it, the more i know i wasn't meant to be born.

when we were in the car, my mom was talking about stuff
and she was complaining about how my dad hadn't given her money in like a month.
and she was like "if i hadn't have gotten married blah blah"
and she was like
"i was signed up for the air force and i was about to go, but your grandfather got sick and i decided not to at the very last second and after that i met your father"
...thats the first instance.

then a few months before my parent's wedding my mom found out that she had this thing called scleroderma which is like a disease that you could die from, but the kind she has doesn't kill you. but they postponed the wedding.
..number 2

then when my mom was pregnant with me she had diabetes and something happened when i was being born cause she had a seasection cause i was late, that i almost died.
..number 3

i really don't know why i'm here lol.

i've never

Wed, 24 May 2006 20:19:39 GMT

cried this much in one week before.
nothing ever goes the way i want it to.

idk, i want to like move
and make all new friends.
i wanna live down the shore with katie<3 haahhah

wow

Wed, 24 May 2006 00:58:42 GMT

why does this week suck so much
seriously i can't stand it anymore.
i'm about to just like jump off a cliff.

now im stuck going to some stupid old guys party on sunday
i wouldn't normally even care that much, but we have off on monday
and i kind of would like to hang out with my friends
i'll probably wind up leaving at like 6 or 7 which isn't that bad,
but still i don't want to go.
andddd if i didn't have to go we could've gone to the beach that day
instead of "possibly" going on monday when everything is going to be crowded as fuck.

dlfkjasdlfjlas
whatever.
i had 3 tests today and i think i did "eh" on history
the other ones were okay i guess.
i really don't care about school anymore
except for italian because i have to pass unless i want to go to summer school which would just add to my problems.
but other than that i just don't care
because i'm passing everything.

i had 2 hours to dance tonight
im usually only supposed to have one,
but we have like 20000000 extra rehersals so don't expect to see me ever again.
the recital is on june 24th and i really suck at some of my dances
so on top of trying to pass italian and deal with my mother i have to worry about that.

whatever,
i'm going to take a shower bye.

so i've come upon the realization

Tue, 23 May 2006 04:07:18 GMT

that my life is horrible, yup.
i couldn't have just been smart and stayed in public school
i want out of this stupid school now
anddd theres no way that i'm going to be allowed to go.
my mom is a bitch.
i'd like to see what she wouldve said/done to her mother if she made my mom go to some "lesbian jesus camp" school where her best friend didn't even go to.
hm but why the hell would she care, shes a cold hearted bitch.

um, yeah
i'm just gonna go study for the three tests that i have tomorrow
that i'm probably going to fail
cause i dont care.

mmm hi.

Mon, 22 May 2006 03:20:42 GMT

yeah i've made about five of these and never used them.
maybe i'll actually use this one.

umm im on the phone with ricco.
and i just got back from the beach with katie
i have lots of white castle because we got it there
and i got to take the left overs.

yuuup