urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ketchup_relish christina condiment christina condiment 2006-08-02T05:46:18Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ketchup_relish:3915 2006-08-02T05:46:18Z 2006-08-02T05:46:18Z ricco is stooooopid urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ketchup_relish:3766 2006-07-24T01:14:53Z 2006-07-24T01:14:53Z i'm an idiot.<br />i get pissed too easily<br />and no i'm not referring to dana lol.<br />im just referring to my previous entries.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i love my boyfriendddd<br />hes my best frienddddd&lt;333 urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ketchup_relish:3522 2006-07-21T00:06:18Z 2006-07-21T03:49:45Z i only write in this when i'm mad about something lol<br />i noticed that.<br />i never have anything nice to say.<br />whateverrrr<br /><br />ummmm today i went to the doctors since ive had this weird cough for like 2 weeks,<br />he did basically nothing<br />then i went to new milford and i'm still there now at cathy's house<br />dana is comingggg soon in like 20 mins<br /><br />yeah and i get to go to cynthia's new house and sleep over on saturday :)<br />beaaccccchhh!<br /><br /><br />i barely talked to my boyfriend all day<br />i guess hes too busy with his band or something like usual<br />=/<br />i never say anything about it but it really annoys me sometimes<br />i mean i dont even care who reads this<br />cause its been bothering me<br />like can't he just give it a break for even a day<br />i feel like i never see him unless its WITH people from his band,<br />or at one of his practices.<br />he took off of work this weekend<br />for a second i thought that maybe he took off for me<br />but then i remembered what this week was.<br /><br /><br />ugh<br />whatever urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ketchup_relish:3271 2006-07-17T05:16:14Z 2006-07-17T05:16:14Z i feel like everyone but me is growing up<br />i just want to be done with being a kid/teenager, whatever i am<br />i just want to be older and have a job and a life of my own<br />i'm sick of being controlled by people<br /><br />i want my own house with a dog and a husband<br />and a real job<br />i just want to grow up already<br />im sick of waiting urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ketchup_relish:2886 2006-07-12T19:01:32Z 2006-07-12T19:01:32Z i've been so fucking mad lately, idk<br />people suck dick.<br />idk why i'm so mad though, like the stupidest shit will set me off<br />it could be like even when someone just says a certain word.<br />i hate getting mad for no reason.<br /><br />and when people ask me "oh whats wrong" or "why are you in a bad mood" i just say nothing because i don't want to start any problems or confrontations because it just makes shit worse.<br /><br />idk it also really annoys me that i'm almost never alone with my boyfriend<br />everytime we hang out we always have to have other people with us<br />like its not fun if it were just us or something idk.<br />i never used to like hanging out in my house, but now i do cause its the one place where no one else is.<br /><br /><br />idk whatever urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ketchup_relish:2563 2006-06-27T22:23:22Z 2006-06-27T22:23:22Z people have changed.<br />sometimes i feel like people that ive been/am closest with don't even like me anymore.<br /><br />i kind of miss last summer when all i did was hang out with dana<br />like it wasn't even a question as to what i was gonna do the next day.<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i have nothing else to say urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ketchup_relish:2476 2006-06-14T03:51:42Z 2006-06-14T03:51:42Z everything is finally coming to some sort of an end<br />finals are this week though eh, geometry is tomorrow.<br />my dance recital is not this saturday, but the next one.<br />i can't wait until everything is overrrrrr.<br /><br />i think i'm gonna get a job though<br />because my mom doesn't pay for anything<br />she cancelled my tanning membership lol<br />and im not even going to ask her to get me a gym membership<br />not to mention clothes and shit i want to buy that she doesn't give me money for.<br /><br />yeah i'm going to paramus park with katie tomorrow after the geometry final which is over at like 930 to look. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ketchup_relish:2294 2006-06-04T06:34:06Z 2006-06-04T06:34:06Z wow<br />my mom flipped out on me because i came home at like 1<br />she said if you ever do that again im gonna have a talk with your boyfriend<br />which i dont even understand because he didn't do anything wrong.<br />she just wants to ruin everything i have.<br />and shes pissed because this is the longest ive gone<br />without her fucking something up.<br /><br />i hate how she cant drop anything<br />she told me not to do it again and i said sorry and i said okay<br />but she still has to keep screaming at me.<br /><br />im so pissed off.<br />ive noticed that every single "mood"<br />on this journal is horrible. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ketchup_relish:1995 2006-05-31T03:50:54Z 2006-05-31T03:50:54Z this has more or less been the worst 2 weeks of this year.<br />idk whats wrong with me<br />i'm so depressed lately, its disgusting.<br />i havent eaten a meal since like...a long time ago.<br /><br />i hope that this weekend is good<br />well i know its not gonna be.<br />but atleast i hope i can "rekindle"<br />friendships that ive had with people that just kind of got lost in<br />me having a boyfriend and other people doing their own thing. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ketchup_relish:1685 2006-05-27T16:17:45Z 2006-05-27T16:18:27Z yeah, so im really bored<br />and my pants are in the dryer.<br />i think i'm going to waldwick tonight?<br /><br />who knows,<br />cause riccoooo wont wake up<br />and tell me what we're doing lol.<br /><br /><br /><br />um yeah, fuck i left my waffles downstairs in the toaster. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ketchup_relish:1336 2006-05-25T17:43:20Z 2006-05-25T17:43:20Z the more i think about it, the more i know i wasn't meant to be born.<br /><br />when we were in the car, my mom was talking about stuff<br />and she was complaining about how my dad hadn't given her money in like a month.<br />and she was like "if i hadn't have gotten married blah blah"<br />and she was like <br />"i was signed up for the air force and i was about to go, but your grandfather got sick and i decided not to at the very last second and after that i met your father"<br />...thats the first instance.<br /><br />then a few months before my parent's wedding my mom found out that she had this thing called scleroderma which is like a disease that you could die from, but the kind she has doesn't kill you. but they postponed the wedding.<br />..number 2<br /><br />then when my mom was pregnant with me she had diabetes and something happened when i was being born cause she had a seasection cause i was late, that i almost died.<br />..number 3<br /><br /><br />i really don't know why i'm here lol. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ketchup_relish:1066 2006-05-24T20:19:39Z 2006-05-24T20:19:39Z cried this much in one week before.<br />nothing ever goes the way i want it to.<br /><br />idk, i want to like move<br />and make all new friends.<br />i wanna live down the shore with katie&lt;3 haahhah urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ketchup_relish:897 2006-05-24T00:58:42Z 2006-05-24T00:58:42Z why does this week suck so much<br />seriously i can't stand it anymore.<br />i'm about to just like jump off a cliff.<br /><br />now im stuck going to some stupid old guys party on sunday<br />i wouldn't normally even care that much, but we have off on monday<br />and i kind of would like to hang out with my friends<br />i'll probably wind up leaving at like 6 or 7 which isn't that bad,<br />but still i don't want to go.<br />andddd if i didn't have to go we could've gone to the beach that day<br />instead of "possibly" going on monday when everything is going to be crowded as fuck.<br /><br />dlfkjasdlfjlas<br />whatever.<br />i had 3 tests today and i think i did "eh" on history<br />the other ones were okay i guess.<br />i really don't care about school anymore<br />except for italian because i have to pass unless i want to go to summer school which would just add to my problems.<br />but other than that i just don't care<br />because i'm passing everything.<br /><br />i had 2 hours to dance tonight<br />im usually only supposed to have one,<br />but we have like 20000000 extra rehersals so don't expect to see me ever again.<br />the recital is on june 24th and i really suck at some of my dances<br />so on top of trying to pass italian and deal with my mother i have to worry about that.<br /><br /><br />whatever,<br />i'm going to take a shower bye. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ketchup_relish:766 2006-05-23T04:07:18Z 2006-05-23T04:07:18Z that my life is horrible, yup.<br />i couldn't have just been smart and stayed in public school<br />i want out of this stupid school now<br />anddd theres no way that i'm going to be allowed to go.<br />my mom is a bitch.<br />i'd like to see what she wouldve said/done to her mother if she made my mom go to some "lesbian jesus camp" school where her best friend didn't even go to.<br />hm but why the hell would she care, shes a cold hearted bitch.<br /><br />um, yeah<br />i'm just gonna go study for the three tests that i have tomorrow<br />that i'm probably going to fail<br />cause i dont care. urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:ketchup_relish:471 2006-05-22T03:20:42Z 2006-05-22T03:20:42Z yeah i've made about five of these and never used them.<br />maybe i'll actually use this one.<br /><br />umm im on the phone with ricco.<br />and i just got back from the beach with katie<br />i have lots of white castle because we got it there<br />and i got to take the left overs.<br /><br />yuuup